And here it comes.. the last month…

Oh my God.. next week is 1st of August… :)
How many feelings.. how many moments of laughing until I couldn’t breath anymore…how many lunches in Mensa.. together, the whole Earth at the same loooong table…
It’s incredible... how fast.. and yet how slow did the time passed… emotions…people.. faces… people that were there when I had trouble… people who didn’t disappointed me… that gave me reasons to wake up smiling and with more trust in me…
When you’re close to tears, remember… someday it will all be over… one day we’re gonna get… so high… :) (Lighthouse Family).
Last weekends were the best moments here… the first and last time I was in Moellner str (the beginning of the craziness :P), waiting for the S-bahn in Lutten Klein until 2am, singing (“I’ve got it from my mama”… we have a video too :D), goodbye party for Sean, Seth, Kyle and Austin in Max Planck.. (the girls on the blanket are heaving their one karaoke show…), goodbye party for Em, D, Ulises and Jelena… (long, long time ago… bye bye miss American Pie… )… taking everybody to the train station …

After Jelena left, on Saturday… I thought I will resist getting home… but… I couldn’t … how much can someone cry? Sunday in the evening I was still trying to stop… :| anyway… the reasons were many… too many… too different. And this time it will be for ever… (never say never, never say forever…). Well… if it is meant to be it will be, if not… I’m not going to cry anymore.. or let my feelings get over my mind… I found my path here… I will not forget that anymore... no matter how close and possible things will seem…
"The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple"...Oscar Wilde
I’m tired of my heart cheating on me… again :) it gave me too many reasons to smile… to feel so close to you... and yet so far…
“Why don’t you just do it?” I don’t know... I don’t wanna suffer… I’m scared of being hurt…
Too late… I already did it in my mind.. in my imagination… too many times… :)


PS: Wtf, every time the internet connection drops, I remember I have a blog :))