Fall if you have to, stand up and start the run again…

So easy to tell, so hard to follow…

If the beginning is the same… for me unfortunately the end is definitely the same…
And here I am again, just like before… like if I have never learned anything… and with every experience you are stronger.. well I guess I’m becoming somehow a wall or something… if I can still make jokes about this… then maybe I’m crazy, maybe I’m just… sad… damn sad… and … I feel it is not worded… all the efforts, all our life… it has no end… if you can’t live through the others… then why do you still live, why do you wake up every morning? How can you still find the joy in every sunrise and every smile that someone gives you?
No one deserves your tears and who deserves them won’t make you cry…
The city is full with lights… it’s alive… more alive then I am right now… and maybe I should just make my homework and that’s it… but I can’t … because as I sad earlier, I begin to care about everything around me… and in the end… the battle will be only with me… and God knows if I will make it…
I saw today “Serendipity”… it’s all about faith and destiny… and… believing… well right now, at 4 am (Gwen :P) I don’t really have pretty more faith in anything… maybe I just need a weekend off… not to think in anything… or just to take my bike and run fast and far from here…
Soon I will write also concrete about life at the Uni Rostock… there are some good parts also… but… right now… “the tears are falling”…

Bis morgen, Rostock.
A friend told me, to let the night be my adviser... but unfortunately the night can't change something... anything ... so...
tomorrow I have classes and seminars and I need to be fresh, so... Good night
and never be sorry for something that you did, because at some point, you wanted that so much enough to really do it...
I'm not sorry and I hope I will never be :)