This week song is Tori Amos- 1000 oceans…

I’ve cried 1000 oceans… and now I know why all this afternoon I had a strange mood, such as something not very good was supposed to happen…
Shits happen, you just have to stay away… it’s so hard to get the distance when you are directly involved in a matter…
The whole afternoon I tried to convince myself that it will be ok to go out somewhere tonight… and I did it, and I congratulate myself, because I discovered a new beautiful place, with nice music… and it was somehow a girls night:P
But there was something missing… maybe it was just my impressions, or maybe it was … you:)

Like I said earlier, I’m beginning to care… to get emotionally involved… and it’s not like before… when it was all sunny and smiling… I have many more challenges, this time I want to fight, more then the other times, I want to learn less… (you learn more from a failure then from a success), and to be happier then ever… never say never, never say for ever…

This is how it’s meant to be… and if not, then it means that I must find that happiness in other parts of my life… in the sunshine, in the walks or in my bike:P

A bit sad for 3 am, but... this is the only me available now...


Kisses…


PS: Maybe I should get satisfied with what I have until now, nice memories, all through in some crisis situations, but with happy-endings:P
I’m not like that… I give a huge part of me and I expect to receive at least the same… or maybe it’s my fault, because I’m not as good as I should be… with the people around me…