after keller

I don’t know what is wrong, but definitely there is something missing here… a connection, mindsets, or maybe I wasn’t born with the right feelings…
I disappoint people… apparently I have my own rhythm, one per week…
I just try to follow my path, or better said, what I think it is my path… it’s not fair.. to want something with your whole being and because of some other facts/factors/ etc not to be able to… try it.. Because it’s not sure you will make it, you will reach your goal…
You can only try …

It’s 3:30… and I can’t sleep… because I had a fight, a small misunderstanding with a very dear person… and it hurts… maybe because your expectations weren’t reached … and because you didn’t reached their ones…
It happens... shit happens, you just have to stay away
I did my best for this time to be different… but some attitudes I can’t change, no matter how hard I try… and I don’t have an explanation, or at least a logical one, why I did it…

And I guess I’m more worried now thinking at the consequences … (it’s ok in the end.. it was just an 17 years old behavior…) but… it’s that feeling that you disappointed somehow…

Nobody told us that life will be fair… and it isn’t … or sometimes is more fair for some of us and less for the others…
I don’t know, if I would have to choose what would I do… probably I would choose to continue to own what I have now… and to fight for more on the other parts… and not to give up at the irreplaceable parts for the parts I can gain by myself .
It’s a fight… and …in the end it’s only with yourself…

"The true perfection of man lies not in what man has, but in what that man is."
Oscar Wilde


Sleep well Rostock!